I didn’t make it to the gym (from now on I’m going to refer to the Northgate Community Center Fitness Room as “the gym”) until today. I’m totally failing at my diet this week and I don’t care. I think I’m PMSing. I don’t normally claim that (or do that, I guess) but if it lets me ignore my diet and not care then I’ll take it. Plus I was crazy irritable yesterday and I don’t think it has anything to do with my half medicated state.
Seriously, how does this not deserve my mental wrath?
Normally I “schedule” my period with my birth control, aiming for a three-day weekend. I was debating whether to extend the next by a week or two but forgot my next pack of pills so it was decided for me. Oops. I’m taking a risk without the long weekend, but lately it seems like the day or two before is the worst so it’s hard to know what to schedule around anyway.
So far I just have that feeling of impending doom. I’m not looking forward to this actually being monthly again!
Things I’ve been going crazy over:
Work – Both the general not wanting to be at this job anymore and little specifics like how people who are apparently smart enough to be managers and owners lack basic reading comprehension! I was given a project today, which is basically having to clean up after someone who’s no longer there, however there’s nothing like a new project to make the regular work pick up and at least that distracts me from the boredom a bit.
Bakery – I’ve been running in circles trying to figure out all of the licenses and permits I’ll need and if it’ll even be feasible in the end (the alternative being giving up on my dream and being stuck in my job forever.) Stopped all of that in its tracks last night when I found this class, Starting a Small Food Business. I signed up for it right away to make sure I’d find a way to make it happen.
Waiting – Andrew’s had some good responses on the job front so I don’t want to imply any pressure on him, but now that his school’s done it’s another waiting game, for me anyway. And so is…
The UC thing – I think this was actually the third thing I couldn’t remember the other day. I’ve been taking a week of super hardcore probiotics, and high dose vitamin D as the latest self-cure attempt. (Being that my doctor’s response is pretty much ‘keep taking the meds until something changes’ (better or worse) I’ve determined its up to me to make something change.) I don’t want to in any way risk jinxing myself as always, but I’ve had two good days in a row. Small but promising.
Hackings – Recent WordPress hacking got all of my sites, and I didn’t clean up well enough because it’s back again. I keep intending to buy this domain since wordpress.com hosting is annoying me, but I don’t dare until the internet is a safe place for blogs again.
People – Oh people always drive me crazy. How do you all live with each other?
Cats – My chair. I said, “my chair!” No, stop eating my hair. No, stop, no hair. No hair. Don’t fight on top of me. If you chase your sister off the bed you can’t stay either. My laptop is not a bed. THAT’S MY CHAIR!!!