The bleeding started today. Late last night, I suppose.

My doctor had referred me to a specialist a few months ago to look into my spotting issues as well as my approaching-the-six-month-point-of-trying-to-get-pregnant-over-35 issues. My appointment was November 1st and I got the positive pregnancy test on October 31. So I went to my appointment and never had a good opportunity to mention, “Oh by the way I’m already pregnant,” so I didn’t, because I’m awkward like that. On the plus side, this did get me someone to send me for the blood tests I wanted.

With my ambiguous HCG levels, she sent me for an ultrasound today. This time I told the technician up front that I knew I wasn’t pregnant anymore, and wanted to apologize for bleeding on the sheets. I had to wonder how normal it is to go through a transvaginal ultrasound while planning out what to have for lunch when it’s all done.

Panera, I decided.